It's okay to not be okay

Another morning of too early waking

body tossing and turning

mind tunneling back and forth through question-and-answer attempts...

mothering

midlife

mediocrity

misunderstanding

missed opportunity

misogyny

and more more more

What's individual? What's collective?

What's mine? What's yours?

What do I want? What is possible?

What next?

How?

I try to work it all out in my mind, and I arrive nowhere.

So (unlike most days during the pandemic)

I get up, and I fix the coffee, and I write.

It's not much, but it's a start.

It's not neat and tidy, but rather rough and far from finished.

Owning this aloud strengthens me,

I think.

Thank you, G.

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